Living Life in Lie

Life. I don't know what life is and the purposes of doing it now. Does anyone even need me? Does the world need me anyway? Have I ever heard someone say they need me? No. No. No.

After living a life as me, which never doing something on purpose, I feel like nothing to lose and nothing to be proud of too. I'm not feeling blue. I'm not happy too. Well, I laughed, but, just laugh. I feel... hollow. I feel empty. 

I forget the love. Do I need love? I don't think so. I forget how it feels to have butterflies in my stomach, forget how it feels when my cheek heats up because I'm blushing, forget the explosion in my chest when I see the love of my life. Oh. I also forget how it feels when my heart torn, forget how it is when I have blurry view because there's tears in my eyes, forget how it feels to be hopeless. But... After all this time, I think I don't live my life right.

Have your heart broken is better than feeling none.