Behind The Wall

I never open myself up.
After all this time, I can only trust 3 peoples.

It's not that I don't want to.

I'm just afraid that if I open the door,

Some people might think that I'm delusional.
Some people would laugh.
Some people would think I'm crazy.

And I know they will.

I know they will because I have the same thoughts about myself.

That's why I didn't try to say a word.
Because I know exactly my life is just a joke I made for pleasing everyone but not myself.

I just wish I could face it.
I wish someday I'm strong enough to stop hiding behind my stronger wall.