Bizzare Addiction

I never have an addiction to the thing like this.
I mean, yeah, I like guys. But this one is definitely not my type.
You heard me. He is not my type.

Yeah, I know he's kind, he's nice, he's not a pervert, and he did everything I asked him to do.
But, everyone know I'm so not me if I like him.

He's not qualified to be my crush.

Even just crush.

OMG.
Why am I so crazy about him? I'm seeking his attention right now and apparently that makes me happy when he hit me up.

I'm feeling so down when things like this happened.
Especially when you know you're not his type either.
Yeah, I don't know and maybe I would never know his feelings.
Or even just a simple thoughts about me.

I even don't want his name come out from my mouth.
I really hate that.